Prayers Please

This means we've got some serious fundraising to do!!!!!

0 for 3 & Baby V

Technically 0 for 4. For those that let us know about Baby V, again thank you. We haven't heard anything at this point which means that we are not “in the running” for next phase however we did fill out the pre-application Monday. Looks like they found a more suitable family for her.

Yesterday we got a call. A baby girl was being born today. Did we want to be presented to the birth mother? Of course! I rushed to get everything our lawyer needed from us. Then we waited... and waited... at noon (today) I still hadn't gotten a call. I sent a text to our lawyer and not long after she gave me a call. The birth mother decided to keep the baby. Today we are grieving for what could have been. I cried until I couldn't cry any more. I'm heartbroken, Chris is as well, but at the same time we are happy that this precious little girl will get to stay with her birth mother. Without God I would give up, but He is giving me strength and the wisdom to know that eventually this will all be worth it. When we are holding our child, the child God has for us, we will look back and know that all this pain is all worth it. This has become another part of our story and one day our child will know this story and will see that we loved him/her enough to NOT give up; to keep going – keep moving forward on this road. This journey is by far the hardest I've ever encounter, but I know that there's a light somewhere at the end of this tunnel.

Risk Takers.

risk

noun: risk; plural noun: risks

1.

a situation involving exposure to danger.

"flouting the law was too much of a risk"

verb: risk; 3rd person present: risks; past tense: risked; past participle: risked; gerund or present participle: risking

1.      expose (someone or something valued) to danger, harm, or loss.

      
         "he risked his life to save his dog"

There are risks associated with everything we do here in this life, on this earth. Sometimes what we know to be possible we hide from our minds and then it's as if it "surprises" us when we're made to face them. Other times we know, but we run from the truth until we can't run any longer. We risk when we hope. We risk when we love. We even face a risk in the waiting.

Our possible birth mother, as of last week, was still undecided on a family, however due to circumstances we are unaware of she has had a miscarriage. I feel very sad for her, not for us - as I felt from the very beginning that God was safe guarding my heart this time around (not hardening it, He just gave me a certain feeling that this baby wasn't meant to be ours). Please, if you read this send a prayer up for M & J. I cannot imagine what they must be going through right now. I'm sure there are some that would argue, "But they were putting the baby up for adoption... and so on..." True, they were, but here's my BUT for you, through adoption they could have still been a part of this beautiful child's life; they could have still been able to see their child, talk with their child, hug their child. Now their precious baby is in God's arms and they are suffering the loss of never knowing him/her. 

As for us, we will continue pushing forward. God has a very special child (or children if twins become an option) out there for us. 

I'll end this with the last three wreaths I've made and sold. Please get with us if you would like one!

Loving every moment.

I got online to check facebook yesterday morning and see this as Chris' status:

"So I woke up today full of life, full of joy, full of hope. Just the mere idea that I will soon be a Dad is amazing. I never wanted anything so much in my entire life."

*swoon*  I felt like my heart was going to explode. Tomorrow, if all goes well, my mom will be driving down and she, my mother-in-law and I are going shopping for the baby's room! I'm so excited that things are falling into place. Praise GOD in all His glory! 

Psalm 150; vs. 1-6
Praise the LORD. Praise God in his sanctuary; praise him in his mighty heavens.  Praise him for his acts of power; praise him for his surpassing greatness. Praise him with the sounding of the trumpet, praise him with the harp and lyre,  praise him with tambourine and dancing, praise him with the strings and flute,  praise him with the clash of cymbals, praise him with resounding cymbals.  Let everything that has breath praise the LORD. Praise the LORD.

Chris' mom stopped by today to see the crib all set up and brought a gift, one of the items we had on baby Williams' amazon wish list. It's Sophie La Girafe!

Tomorrow Chris' mom, my mom (who's driving down in the morning) and I are going shopping for baby items! I'm so excited I could burst! Our baby is so loved already and he/she isn't even here yet! I do believe we will be ready to begin the home study by the end of the month if all continues and we get everything we need!